I always feel it is too late to do things or to correct the course of my life, which makes me feel (more) depressed. Today I was trying to read something to update my knowledge in my field, and the idea of all the people who are of my age and even younger than me who are doing better already in life passed in my mind. I felt so down that I couldn't read a word. I feel my energy's level and motivation, and thus my life and situation, are getting worse and worse. I am not so optimistic about my life, but this is what I deserve for someone who is not sociable or motivated to do anything.