I have advanced degrees, but this isn't enough. I don't view this as accomplishments, because I am not happy. I know people with less education but more successful and happier because they have the motivation to excel in life, and the strength to be warriors. I have no energy and motivation, and people can sense that. I feel like I have given up in the life arena. Life has always been a struggle for me, but recently I have felt that I lost the fight. I am just waiting the results to be announced from the top of the buildings. People tend to hire and engage with others who are sociable and energetic. My degrees have no values if I don't pursue things and be energetic and optimistic in life and sociable with others. I am literally a walking dead.