I dont talk to anyone.I am very quiet.So much has happened in my family the last few years.I was sick a few years ago very sick and in ICU and hospital for months and months with a serious medical illness but I recovered.However as so much has been going on all around me and things sometimes I portray on the outside how I am feeling on the inside,it's very hard to explain.Like I feel sometimes like I am dying on the inside so have to portray that on the outside......I feel like I cant talk to anyone about anything so like even had a pretend trach tube on before so people wouldnt talk to me.I feel it's hard to breathe so have pretend oxygen...I have ended up upsetting lots of people and it wasnt intentional and they all understand and have forgiven me but I couldnt forgive myself so I self harmed for ages but have stopped that now.I do have ptsd and social anxiety but I only told my psychologist a small part of my whole story.I am nervous to tell her everything.Anyone going through anything similar?Anyone know what could be wrong with me?