Hi sophiesmom

I think I have an idea of what you're meaning/feeling........along the lines of reminising on the hope you had/could have had that there could be change out there.........feeling that after so long, so many words/posts/threads you still know so clearly some of those feelings that brought you here............feeling that so little has changed.........wondering if/when things can be different after so long...........??

But...........depression throws at you it's version of realities.........maybe sometimes some of them are true, some of them are partially true, and of course plenty of them are false as we know..........but it often doesn't give you all the realities.....often nowhere near all of them......so...........

Some realities as I see them:
Of all those posts, you've also posted so much that could help others, so much that could have made a real difference to others in their lives,
You're still here so you've made some real connections with others along the way, which has to be a positive,
You've found a place to be (and that could be whether you were having a fantastic, good, not so good or bad day!!) where there are plenty of people who really care about and value you (which they do!!) which you really deserve,
Of all those posts, I'm sure there were times you really didn't want to post something but pushed yourself, and that shows the strength and courage in you,
In this time you've shared so much showing your bravery, your true honesty, how genuine a person you are,
In all that time, in all those posts you've been a big part of making this a true "community/family" and it is pretty amazing, right??!!
So just some realities I see.........and I could go on!!!

But, here's still really hoping for "better days" for you

Alison