Thank you both. If there is one thing I have "learnt" its that I "deserve" this pain. Its what makes me real (well almost real ...) and to punish myself is my destiny.

to you both

to me.

If I was braver I'd slash my wrists in the correct spot, but unfortunately I am not..... yet

Dont care about me, I'll only hurt you

I made a post in "General" which I deleted about whether people get booted out for not making enough progress or negative progress. A kind person PMd me and said that reaching out and expressing my feelings is progress. So why do I feel like something that doesn't even deserve to live