Just to be safe... "Trigger Warning / Sexual Trigger Warning"

This about says it all...

It just has not been a good couple of weeks. Just think finals are 2 weeks away, graduation is coming, a wedding, a trip to Europe, and me flying high and crashing low by mere words and thoughts, over and over again. By people who don't care about me or whether I live or die. It's a terrible way to live if you can call this living. I just want what others have, or seem to have, I would give anything for peace of mind but that is like a leaf floating in the wind, being blown wherever it goes and never having a say in any of it.

Maybe I am cursed. Maybe it is a gift I will never have. A longing never to be fulfilled. A desire unfulfilled. An orgasm never achieved. A cut never felt.

I am praying that morning never comes...

DAY 52...