about what the dr's going to say tomorrow. I wish i had an idea of how she's going to react. I wish i knew whether or not it will "come out" OK.
Part of me wants to tell her so badly, and another part of me wants to run in the opposite direction.
She wouldn't be aloud to contact my parents right?? (I'm 19 btw...) She shouldn't be able to as i'm an adult, but i'm still scared that she might.
I'm anxious just sitting her, so i can't imagine what tomorrow is going to be like. And to add a cherry on top tomorrow is my first exam (at 8:30 in the morning) and then they keep coming right up until next wednesday.
I can't study right now. I can't do anything right now.
And... i have a confession. I SI'ed tonight. I was trying so hard not to because i didn't want her to see fresh ones ... but everything is just too overwhelming.
I wish i could just make this all disappear.