There is this girl I see around, she's like 3 or 4 years older then me, but looks younger. She's very skinny, and has an anxious look on her face all the time. I am interested in her. I am not a lesbian, I'm more assexual then anything else. I just feel like we have a lot in common with our anxiety. Im scared to talk to her, because I know her anxiety is very bad. I don't want to trigger her.

I just kind of want to look like her. I want to lose more weight, and cut my hair short. I also bought a pair of Under Armour sweatpants.

Do I kind of want to be like her? I have my own personality, and I am happy with my life, I just don't always like the way I look physically. I am focused on losing weight, and I had planned on cutting my hair short anyways after losing the last 30 pounds, so maybe I'm just focused on my own physical appearance?

I'm just really confused.