they say they've been using records from my doctors but that cant be the case because either they are only using portions of the records from when i first started going to the doctor (as it still has GERD on it and i have never put GERD on the disability paper as that would be ludicrous) or they are just using what they want off the records..

Ive heard they sometimes request you see their doctors but they have never requested me see their docs... I'm going to talk to my therapist about it on the 3rd and really tell her i need this and i need her help to please please help me, and then talk with my case manager and tell her the same thing because somethings wrong with these disability people and the records they've been using as i know for a fact that i've been diagnosed with PTSD and bipolar atleast so i dunno why they keep saying that "I" say that I cant work due to the inaccurate diagnosis... im extremely frustrated... on so many levels...
and my dad is not helping matters at all... he's driving me ape *** crazy... and im already crazy... i wish there was somewhere else i could go, but there is no logical place that i know of that i could go... i have no friends... no family that i would rather live with... and i dont kno what resources my clinic can offer... but my brother said i have to be careful because they might would find a place for me surrounded by drug addicts and stuff...

i've gotta get to the bottom of it and i really hope my therapist and case manager can help me... i know you guys can only speculate... so im really trying to change gears... because im seeing how my life is being ruined by my mental illness and how this illness has me fooled into staying stuck...

the next step i have to take as to my knowledge is to go before an administrative law judge... and i absolutely hate that... i did it last time and i was horrible... even though i did great and they deemed that i couldnt work, they still denied me... imagine that...
im telling you... im in hell... i must be...

so now i'll have to build a whole new case... work diligently to fix this weird diagnosis problem i have going on... and then wait for god knows how long just to get an appointment with the judge... i dont know how much more my poor brain can handle...

here is what they have down...