I understand there is a long waiting list. But you need to get on that list. If your cutting is as bad as you say maybe there is a way to get faster help. Maybe you need to go to the hospital and tell them how bad you are doing and maybe they can get you the help you need quicker.

I'm sorry but you need to do something. If she is your best friend, as you say, you would not be doing this to her. You can do what you want to do to yourself but to bring someone down with you is not friendship, caring, or love. It's dangerous.

I get good grades too. I will graduate college next month. Go talk to a Guidance counselor or some teacher. You would be surprised how much help may be available if you let people know what's going on.

If you want to talk my offer is still on the table... PM me if you are interested...