Hey, I remember you since you once posted on one of my threads. I remember your deeply and positively supportive message.
I have to say I find you a deep person with a great inner world inside. You have my curiosity, I have to say. If you want to talk about life and death, I'd love to.

As for your situation, it generally seems to me like a natural path of self-growth people go through. As for people, what I found out in life is hobbies are short-term connectors. Long-term connectors however, are universal values such as expressing feelings, talking about what is painful, supportive each other as human beings, walking a path together...

That's all I have to say for now