So, basic gist is had to get sutures (from SH) Monday and again today (Wednesday).

We have PT tomorrow... had an appt Monday, and then the day got worse. Been having very vivid flashbacks and body memories, lots of dissociation and time loss.

At the end of the appt (usually, sometimes at the beginning), they do massage. Monday, the guy checked the muscles and tendons in our arms, cuz of fibromyalgia joint pain, to make sure it wasn't anything else. We know he saw scars and some minor, recent stuff.

We are worried about staying present, and not completely losing it during the appt. Not sure how to stay grounded. Gonna take our fidget cube and AA desire chip. Both help with tactile grounding a little, but any help/advice welcome.