You are correct, Dalila, that it won't happen overnight to overright 50+ years of depression and negativity but each day is a new day to start with. It also helps that my meds are finally starting to work and I am not dealing with severe depression at the present moment. I only started therapy last February so I have come a long way but I have a very long way still to go. And I have faced as much of my past as I can remember and will continue to do so as it comes up - but in the meantime I do plan on building as many good memories as I can. And past memories appear regularly during therapy sessions (and outside of therapy) and we deal with those each and every time. I apologize if I offended you in any way . It was not my intention.