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Originally Posted by Poetryj
Now I find out she still craves it. And the reason she stopped was to make our relationship work, not because she's over it. I do give her credit for being good to me. I can not change who she is, what she thinks of... but it is a lot for me to take in. But she thinks I am being extremely dramatic about it. I tried talking about it to her and she always makes comments saying it is not the end of the world and that she hasn't done it. Which yes, this is true. But is it okay for me to feel concerned, scared, and sad as bad as I am? I am very serious about her at the moment and finding this out sort of crushed me...
I am trying to let it go but I am just hurt. Is it okay for me to feel the way I am feeling?
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Having occassional cravings sounds normal. In my experience (alcohol), the longer you have stopped taking it, the less often you will think about it. She is lucky to have a partner who keeps her on the straight and narrow. If you were a user, she might find it impossible to kick a drug habit that can eventually cause a lot of damage (heart health, etc). Sometimes people's emotional reactions are unpleasant but if you can keep talking about it with her, maybe you can get to the point where you can get those feelings out (and then the negative feelings will be mostly gone). Sometimes other people's pain is unpleasant but a good partner will listen--if not during the first talk then maybe during a 2nd or 3rd talk. I have learned that it is not good to bury/hide my feelings from my partner--they end up growing into something in the back of your mind that is more extreme than reality! It is OK to feel hurt, our feelings just are. Perhaps she was also a bit emotional during the discussion. When you talk to her again, perhaps include thanking her for giving up her drug habit and tell her that your glad she's stopped because you want her around for a very long time. Whenever you can, think of at least one positive thing to say if you need to tell your partner something negative.....