So it kind of got me wondering - how important is your relationship with the fiance to you? Myself, I've never had something like that, and I feel like I got transformed through periods of shame, awkwardness and complete loneliness into just not caring... Or maybe I'm naturally like that.

At the same time it's another thing that makes me feel... out of place, I guess. Because normal people seem to expend so much energy on finding and keeping a romantic partner...

I don't know. I just saw a clip from the movie What If and I'm wondering if you, for example, relate to a situatiation depicted, if not exactly there, then in a typical romantic movie.