I just give up on everything, okay. I'm done trying.
If i go to the docs or whatever whats it gonna change?
My life will still be the same, i'll be stuck in the same place I always have been, no job, no friends, a bf who doesn't understand me.
Like, what's the point in anything. It's just a dumb life that I don't want.

You know, I was supposed to die at birth. But some dumb people saved me cause it's their job or whatever. I sometimes think that's why my life is so crap. I'm not supposed to have one, i'm not supposed to exist, but cause I was 'saved', that's all I am. Just someone that exists with no purpose.