i can't put it on the back burner because i need this... my dad is on disability and he doesnt have enough money to support himself much less me too, i try to be as small as possible but his attitude and not being able to afford anything like shoes, clothes or anything i want or need and being cursed out all the time is driving me crazy...

i cant handle it anymore so i need the disability help to get him off my back...
to support myself ...

im trying to figure out what my diagnosis is, i have tried to see my diagnosis before but they just hid it from me, i dunno why but i didnt ask to see it at that time because i am very timid and have avoidant tendencies... im trying to fight it but personality issues are hard to change... but im trying very hard to change

im going in to talk to my therapist about this stuff and to try to get to the bottom of it like i said i already sent an email telling her i need to talk about it because im at the end of the rope and cant handle anymore... and that i need to know the diagnosis for the disability...
i told her in the email that i need help getting it straight and im going to talk to her and my case manager when i go in about getting the diagnosis straight so that i can have it printed and on paper to give to a lawyer so that hopefully i wont have to say anything to the lawyer when i see him and he/she can do all the paper work ..

i am too tired to do much more.. i feel like im at a breaking point and im scared