It's very hard, what is going on in my family is extremely toxic. Especially since my sister took over completely and has my parents at her house. She is so controlling and toxic that I can't even be near her because even if I manage to deal with it when I am visiting my parents I end up struggling for days afterwards. I feel like it's my fault that I avoid that whole situation, I feel like I have abandoned my parents but my sister gets SO TOXIC that it really makes me very ill.

Because I stay away, my sister gets to be the martyr and curse me. It's not my parents I stay away from, it's my sister who is so unpredictable and can blow up in a rage at me. I tried to call my brother in law just to get an update on how my parents are doing, all that did was result in a "nasty" phone call from my sister because she has to have FULL control where in order to know anything at all I have to deal with her and her disordered drama that is SO TOXIC. If I had a way to show how she behaves I know it would trigger so many members.

I miss my parents so much and yet I just can't be near that drama queen witch that has to control everything and no one is allowed to have it worse than her, she needs all the drama to be about "her".