Sorry for the delayed response...

I've been thinking about it and I think I feel more empathy/compassion or whatever it should be called for people who actually treat me like a person and like I have worth.

Throughout my childhood and through college and experiences in my field, I've often been treated like I don't exist, that my skills and talents are unimportant, or even that I'm just my boyfriend's accessory, or that I'm just subhuman. All of this is because I had the audacity to be born without a penis. Like I somehow willingly chose not to be a guy. The prior generation in my field is still pretty misogynistic. My generation isn't nearly as much, but they were conditioned by the people that were, so it still exists on a subconscious level. And it's oh so subtle sometimes.

You know, once I finally reach human status with people, I tend to care about them more. It's funny how that works. Which would explain why I care about my boyfriend, his family, and the clients and coworkers I currently work with (in a different field).

I think I've just been stuck in the wrong culture my whole life. I only live 3 hours away from my home town at the moment. I'm not sure where to move to though because maybe it is just me. Maybe I'm not fully a person? I'd hate to move some place else and still get ignored or the vast majority of men being REALLY uncomfortable interacting with me. Maybe they're more uncomfortable now that I've been in a relationship for almost 3 years, I don't know.