Actually SHE came to me the other day, crying and saying she is sorry and now understands, and blah blah blah, but i dont believe her. She doesnt understand and never will. I think she wanted to get rid of the guilty feelings, only that she made ME feel guilty for not forgiving her. I cant. Not until now, at least. And this is somethong that bothers me a lot.
Today instead, she asked me some personal questions to which i didnt want to answer so i lied to her. I dont like lying to her, but i felt forced to. I hated it and hated her for being so curious. She is so smothering. Thats what i hate about her. I know her motives are good and she doesnt want to bother me but she does. I guess thats why sons/daughters go living alone at my age. But i dont have a good enoough job to afford having a place on my own. Not yet... im sure things would go a lot better if i had my own place...