Unfortunately, I didn't plan ahead very well. So I tapered off of 200mg within about a week. If I had to do it again, I'd take much longer. Oops!

There is a silver lining. I've been off Zoloft since roughly Feb. 9th, it's now April 27th. Strangely enough, I'm actually doing okay without it. I won't say I'm doing great, obviously Major Depressive Disorder isn't going away anytime soon. But at least I'm "out of the woods" as far as withdrawal symptoms. I haven't felt suicidal or self-harmed in at least two months. I could be doing much worse.

I definitely plan to go back on meds. I just started seeing a new therapist a few weeks ago. At our next session, I'm going to insist on a referral to a psychiatrist for med management. I figure, why make this harder on myself? Yes, I'm surviving. But I'm definitely not happy, or motivated, or enjoying life very much. I don't need to play Sisyphus, pushing a giant boulder (called depression) up a hill for all eternity. I could use a little help.

That said, I don't know if I'll go back on Zoloft. It didn't make a noticeable difference, even when I was on 300mg (1.5x max recommended dose). There's gotta be something out there that actually helps me.

Thanks for replying -- even hearing "you're not alone" is encouraging!

Take care!