I know what you mean. This is the first time in 10 years that I've ever been totally off meds. I'm surviving, amazingly I've had no thoughts of suicide or self harm in months. But I'm not happy, nor thriving or enjoying life. Next week, I'll ask my new therapist for a referral to the clinic's psychiatrist for med management. I could use a little help. I still believe I was over-medicated before, and the plethora of side effects was making me feel worse. But I can't give up hope. Of all the meds out there, there just HAS to be one (or 2 or 3) that can help me.

Thanks for replying. Good luck with your battle against depression!