Today on my walk with H, he asked me what I knew about Social Security calculations so I told him the bit that I did know about how it is calculated and then I said, "If you have to take it at 62 (because he's unemployed) then that will make the decision easy for you anyways."

He said, "Not necessarily -- Now the sky is falling!" (He was implying that I was worried but I didn't have the least bit of emotion in my voice and didn't feel aggravated at all!)

So I didn't say anything else and don't feel distressed about whether or not he gets a job--lately, I just don't worry about our future finances. We'll both work if we can but so much of it is out of my hands. The two of us have had colorful work histories. I feel like I would have been more successful had I understood my mental issues better but I actually feel blessed to have figured so much out--I understand my strengths and weaknesses so much better than I used to. That's going to help me do better in any future jobs!