Art, why you beating yourself up again for loving, wanting, and needing your T? I know this is your pattern. It seems well, like the problem isn't seeing her weekly or every other week; your loving/wanting/needing her; your missing her... the problem is that you can't say.. hey I'm Art and I love, want, need, miss my T and that is OK, valid, real... and screw whatever internal and external voice that says otherwise... because my T is awesome at helping me and being helped feels great.

And I hope that doesn't rub you the wrong way... if you wanted a supporting hug instead, just ignore me.

ETA - oh, not to say the missing/longing feeling doesn't suck, cuz it sure sucks for me at times. I guess I feel it's part of the bargain that comes with the good feelings, when everything feels great.