Turq, I've spent looooong spans of time in that exact state. In fact, a few months ago that feeling made me decide to quit taking my meds. I wanted a fuller range of emotions. This was a bad choice on my part and now I'm working on getting out of a really bad patch.

But what is that numb thing? I'm starting to believe that it's that we get used to low levels of chronic anxiety and depression. It's just strong enough that it becomes emotional white noise, muting the dynamic range of feelings we should be having.

Major episodes are easy to recognize but more subtle, background problems rob you of your "self" without (seemingly) being big enough to warrant those major episode level's of treatment and attention.

I could be wrong about this as I'm still waiting to get back into therapy but my gut tells me I'm right.

Cyran0