their have been times where I have refused certain meds, because they have just not helped.

their has also been times where i've refused therapy, i've simply said something along the lines of, what is the point of seeing you?. I don't remember our sessions, and to be honest I feel like crap afterwards

i'm never going to be perfect, i'm never going to be MI free

I think at times I do feel like you

who gives a **** about treatment

it seems like every 2 or 3 weeks you start something else anyway which is just another dead end.