1 of the things I do, is when I feel nothing, I trigger myself with a movie, or a peace of music.

I know it's bad, but I used to be under the impression that it would at least lift your mood a little (I mean if you're feeling lowest of the low, it makes sense, right?)

or not... It makes me feel worse, but I can never seem to stop it
letting myself go- I know I should keep up with self care, I know I should look nice, but what's the point?. it's not like anyone's around to see

sometimes even thinking about looking nice depresses me
watch the news- I always want to hear these nice stories about how a doggy gave birth to puppies, or how people have helped someone get the funds for a treatment, but always end up being dragged in to stuff- the darker side of the news

relatedly, dwelling on things I don't care about

example: we're due for another election on june 8th.

will I be voting?. no. do I care about it?. no. so why do I bother thinking about it?

putting myself down at every oppotunity

probably others, but those are the ones that come to mind

when it comes to friends, do you have more online friends than real life?. more real life?, or is it equal