Thanks for your reply. The first thing came to my mind after reading your post is "I am almost 35 years old, and I need light years before I get to the point where I can talk like this person and have his mentality, who seems to have passed through this much earlier than me, and has found the answer, which confirms my original point that I am late in life and a failure". I know you are trying to talk me out of this way of thinking, but it just happens. I couldn't help it.
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I mean who really cares how many degrees or how much money a person has if that person does not exemplify a nature & character that is worthy of your appreciation and respect? Would you rather be surrounded by individuals who have attained a lot of 'worldly success' but are severely lacking in their ability to embody those important virtues - or would you rather be surounded by individuals who earn your appreciation and respect by the very qualities that they exemplify and which stem from their authentic nature & state of consciousness.?
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In my other thread "Worthless", I mentioned how worthless my degrees are because of my flawed character and lack of sociability with people. I don't know how to connect with people. Of course I'd rather be around authentic people who respect me and appreciate me because of my true character, not because of my degrees and possessions. This thread "Too Late" is a small slice of the whole story. My problem is not education or jobs or money, but character. I have no character, that is why I don't have the respect of anyone, including my parents and family. Everyone treats me like a trash, at best by negligence.
I used to read self-help books, and I actually started to read the book you mentioned. Now to be honest, I am not a spiritual guy as your writings indicate, so, words like the Universe of God don't resonate with me. I read some books like "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People" for Stephen Covey and "The Power of Self-Discipline" for Brian Tracy. They are about building character before anything else. Although I felt good reading them, they didn't change anything in my thought process. I continued to do what I have always done, and thus continued to be the same person I have always been.
I feel I have no purpose in this life. I am lost. I don't care about degrees and money. If you read all my posts you would know that. I care to have respect and appreciation from others as you mentioned. Not because of money, but because of who I really am. I have the highest degrees and my financial situation is not bad, yet I have no respect or appreciation from anyone, which makes me very depressed. I totally agree with you about the material stuff and what people say on their death beds. Money and jobs are means to life. I know people with less education and less money and have more respect than I do. They have friends. Girls like to talk to them ... etc. I am just a piece of paper called a degree because my father defined my worth with education and money. He was/is very wrong about this. I am paying the price of this. Now I am trying to fix this by re-learning socializing again as if I were a 12 years old boy. This is the point of my post. I haven't grown emotionally and mentally. I have just grown physically in age.
Thank you again