I wonder if people like myself become hypersensitive to mood and the over all sense of wellbeing. What does the average person do that doesn't experience a disorder of any kind? Perhaps caffeine in the morning to get moving. Maybe an alcoholic drink in the evening or nothing at all.

For me and my diagnosis, I have the ability to influence my mood all day long and I am always seeking perfection. I never quite find it and much of what I ingest is for preventative measures. Avoiding mania and depression. Trying so hard to stay well balanced and yet, I hate it. Balanced is safe and yet it is boring.

Would it be great to be normal (no disorders?) I don't know that I can answer that. Seems that people are always seeking something. In a sense I realize I am normal. I just have the opportunity to experiment with different compounds and I think I take it much too serious at times. It's not necessary to feel perfect all the time. I seem to forget that.