Now that I know what abilify can do for me, and that I could be major episode and paranoia free; I worry about this a bit. In 10 years, how do I convince myself I still need meds that require 2-4+/yr supervision, even if I am episode free. Will I remember what its like to assume everything important is wrong and backwards from reality, that everyone that wants to help, is really out to capture me for use as amusement?

That my keys to avoiding that feeling, are also the people I will assume the absolute worst about, as soon as the med's effect fades?

Kinda sucks..