Hi there,
I feel for you. Hang in there.
But why can't you share this with your therapist? All feelings should be up for discussion, and often the most productive and useful things to discuss are feelings for the therapist. Why don't you feel this can be shared? Would it be too revealing? Would you find it embarrassing, to show your dependence on another person? I mean, I would really think about why you are hesitant to talk about it and then, you know, talk about it. Therapy can be a place for trying new things and changing the way we approach relationships. It can be really hard to share things that show how vulnerable and needy we are but, at least in my experience, doing that is very freeing and has shed light on how closed off I am to others in "normal" life.
Anyway, my therapist is out of town for a week so I am right there with you.