Well no more er visits I hope.been back and forth for the last two or three days inside.once I was kicked out even.i was told by a lady they would not see me though my life could have been in danger.she told me your eyes don't look like you ingested anything. I walked out of the er crying in the opposite direction of home at 8 o'clock at night not a clue were i was going.one point I thought I'd go to the overpass to conquer my fear of heights by crossing it.i instead ended up at target calling my mom.she was very upset when I told her and took me back up to the hospital were this time they were more than happy to see me.but since no one gave me my medicine plus I'm always like this in hospitals after my mom left I just went nuts.kicking the bed rails,eating plastic,biting wires,ect.they finally gave me a shot and I went to sleep and went home the next morning.
But I found something to self harm with the night after that and knew I wouldn't stop if I didn't get help.i called 911 and said come get me.they told me since I'd done this a second time.it was obvious I needed to be hospitalized and so then I was back at the er and my behavior was the same as the night behavior because I was in pain and no one would give me medicine,no one would let me use the bathroom at first,they wouldn't let me use a phone to call my mom.i had concerns about a wound and the lady just said there are no doctors available in fact it still hasnt been looked at.the self harming stuff.i know i did it to myself so people have that mentality like why are you worried now?but it's not about that it's treat me as a patient with some respect and let me see a doctor if I ask for one cause obviously some part of me must care if I called 911.
I saw another therapist who sent me home and after getting admitted this time didn't work I am so completely and utterly done with er visits if my sister comes homes home we will just have to fight.which was what this was all about avoiding that. I'm so sorry to my mom.😟I thought I'd get help for this problem guess I was totally mistaken.