So sorry you're having a bad time. I can definitely relate to being awdward socially, it's a definite addition to my stresses. Drastic measures aren't for me either. My kids are gown but still. . .One foot in front of the other is about all I can do most days and there have been days when I just shut down and let that be, too. Glad you have a good T, hope things will be better soon.