I just can't do anything productive!
I REALLY want to create music to express my tense feelings with Ableton (a digital music producing program), but when I get on the computer, I feel too overwhelmed to lift a finger.
I don't feel like playing a video game since it's non-productive. I've played video games all my life and I just want to do something different for a change!

Sometimes I also get thinking "What's the point of creating art (music included) if no one will notice it (fame)?"

I don't know what to do... I feel overwhelmed but I don't want to keep being indifferent to reality and just daydream and play video games all the time. I have an inner world I want to express and don't know how...

I also want to rid myself of the tension along the way... I don't know what to do...