T and I primarily use talk therapy for my sessions. Once he had me use a padded baseball bat to hit a padded table, but it was too reminiscent of my violent childhood so it didn't really work for me as a means of releasing anger. Now, we talk, talk, talk. Sometimes we breathe. (Well, we're always breathing but.........lol)

Recently I had a most difficult sesssion where I lashed out at T and barely got out of bed for two days afterward ( did go to work but that was it). Finally after two days I was able to call him and together we have analyzed the sesssion and what went wrong, for both of us.

If you saw my post about the haunted house yesterday, that is basically what happened. I arrived at therapy in a frightened and terrified state.

I told T that there was a clue to how we can proceed when I am in that state. There was some music on in the waiting room that soothed me. I told him that meant I needed some sort of external stimulation to soothe me. So, I suggested we do visualization to bring me to my "safe place." (This safe place was established about six months ago.)
He said yes, but we can also breathe together. We have done that on a few occasions and it is so intimate. It's just deep breathing, sort of Buddhist-ish.

That's all, just breathe. I love it, and it brings us together in a way that talking can't.

Sigh.