The problem is the nearest psych hospital ive been black listed from as well.i suppose if i went up there theyd have no choice but the psychiatrist has made it clear he doesn't want to treat me.thats what my Casemanager said.i dont remember what i did honestly.i remember the time before that i was so angry i jumped on the nurses counter and demanded to speak to a social worker cause if i didnt take meds id never come back to that psych ward again hed make sure of it he said.he said i was selfish and didnt care about anyone other than myself.so when he left i cried then i got angry cause they said i would go home and i asked to see social. Worker and they said she wad busy so i jumped on thw realky high counter and the psychiatrist came out and at first told me to jump off it then tried to make me fall by pulling my leg.they finally did get me down but i am blacklisted from that er.i have to go to one far out were my parents cant reach me usually.theres another one closer but id have to find if they have enough room and even then to check myself in wouldnt that just mean they kick you out sooner?