Over and over again. I have been unable to finish two degrees (trying my third now but not hopefully I will ever be well enough to work in the field). Lost close friends and partners. Jobs and the chance to have a group of friends. ( I have a couple but most live interstate or overseas.). I am also barely hanging on to a low paid casual retail job due to my many lengthy absences. I have also lost a career as a Case Manager and Project Manager.

It grieves me no end so i can understand the hurt you a are going through. To get through I stay focused in the present and do what I can to have a great future, even though I believe it is a farce sometimes. Everyday I try to work towards a better future just in case I go into remission and can function like a normal person again. I try to hope but fail at times. But I stubborn and keep getting up.

You have hope for your future. You may have symptoms throughout your life but they will not always be this bad. In fact you may become one of the high functioning BP people. Your dreams may not be possible right now but a time may come when they are. Hang in there and do what you can each day to find a life worth living. To be honest I have felt great hopelessness about my future recently to the point of SI. It takes all my strength to not give up but I just keep trying and hope things will improve.