I called in sick to my internship today. The depression was too much. I am a total loser. I probably should have pushed myself like I usually do, but today seemed beyond the point of pushing. I should have done it though. I just couldn't leave the bed. I went to bed at 9 last night and stayed in bed til 10 this morning. I would have stayed longer but my back was hurting so much I had to get up and move around. Lots of tears. So afraid my husband is going to be mad at me when I talk to him later. He said, "I really want you to have a great day today." And I didn't even go!!! (Crying now). I want to call T. He told me a million times to call him. But why? He can't take it away.

I'm sorry, maybe this should have gone in the depression forum, but I feel most comfortable in here when posting about a problem. I am so scared.