For me it came down to a binary choice. Continue down the awful painful pathway to death OR accept that I had to have some sort of spiritual growth. I'm not a bible or big book thumper at all. Very far from it. I just got my *** kicked to the point of having enough humility to make changes to my belief system.

My priorities and my values, which led to the choices of picking up and continuing to drink and use, had to change at a fundamental level for me to find the sobriety and recovery that I enjoy today. That fundamental change is just a teeny tiny little bit of spiritual growth. And I've experienced much joy and redemption over the last few years. I hope a similar peace is available for you and your struggles. Thanks for letting me share.

Message me anytime you need someone to talk to. Thanks again.

moogs