If for whatever reason you can't continue this Med long term there are plenty of other meds available that can be used over the long term and they may help you. You also may not Need them forever. Sometimes taking meds for a few years to get your life together and develop positive thinking and habits can be enough for some people and then they can go off of them eventually.

I can understand what you mean about feeling fake. But remember, depression is an illness. You're taking medicine to feel better, and you're feeling better. This is great news. It is the same thing as taking medicine for a physical issue and feeling better. You aren't fake, you are receiving treatment for a medical condition and you're feeling better. Try to think of it like that. Good luck.