it can be difficult with friends. i told one who used to live with me that i had parts. she never knew that since they never talked to her during those months. we also became a bit closer after she moved out, so it was kind of safer from a distance type thing like most things it seems.

recently, a part got upset and thought she didn't like us anymore because of not wanting to go somewhere we invited her and then not really saying much via texts. i tried to tell the part that it isn't that she doesn't like us, she has her own reasons for not wanting to go and that she is busy with school and other things in her life so can't text back right away. but that part continued to be upset and in other situations felt like they/us were inferior and no one cares about us.

i don't really know how to have friends in general because as i've gotten older and more has come up with the others, it doesn't feel so easy or safe. there seem to always be triggers or upsets of some kind, and navigating friendships on top of social anxiety and having the others and all that goes with it just makes it so so complicated. there is this fear of scaring a person, them using things against us, us being afraid of them, etc. so many dynamics to things.