Sorry you are struggling so. When IP and manic I take up to 10mg of clonazepam a day to calm down and even then I can still be agitated. It is a helpful med though, outside the addiction. My AP's and mood stabilisers are increased too. I've been IP 5 weeks now and finally Haldol is stabilsin me. 10mg a day.
I really hope you stabise soon. Mania can be terrifying but it will pass. Hang in there!
'See you on the dark side of the moon...'
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PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead