Speaking as someone outside looking in, to me you do have courage. I see how you struggle with your family. To simply exist day after day with that takes courage. You lived in another country, yes? That takes courage. You had a life there. That takes courage.

I applaud you for enduring and for what you have accomplished.

I think you should take these bits of courage that you have and tuck them away somewhere. Add to them in any way that you can.

If you do that, then I will attempt to do it, too.