But how much good and how much bad is there in life? Can you say it is 50-50, for example? Happiness is a glimpse in the darkness of life in my view. As you described it, it is a fleeting moment. The majority of time, I see, life is suffering and struggle. Do the moments of happiness make it beautiful? I don't know, because I haven't experienced happiness. Most of my days are bad, otherwise there are flat; neither good nor bad. I kid you not. I don't remember one happy day in my life, including my graduation days. I didn't feel proud of myself. I've felt everything was an obligation for me in this life imposed on me by others and society by large.