I do. I don't have real manic. From what I have read, I seldom have those episodes. Tend towards depression and was given that diagnosis 20 years ago. Mostly I hang in the medium to mixed ***** mode. Was taking panic taking and latuda and my new insurance won't cover it. Med free ( well legal ones anyhow and am actually doing well . Yes, I do question it. I now have memory and add type symptoms from either BP itself which causes cognitive decline or it's my self medicating in and off through life (in my 50'). Been around the block s few times and sometimes get irritated when people say you haven't found the right combo yet, its been close to 20 years of trying, still not mentally healthy and accept his is my permanent burden. Some find their combo that works but not all. I wish you good luck truly