This part stands out. We may try to become what they tell us to, but there is that part of us that disagreed and disagrees. The fact that you see things differently shows you are indeed different than your father, and others, defined you. True, we may behave as we were taught, but we do things for our own reasons. You may behave respectfully to your parents, but it's not because you believe in their guidance and admire their wisdom.
I hope you break free of the self damaging ways of others, and in a way that makes the best sense to you.