Lately I've been feeling pretty bad. I'm having trouble sleeping. I'm overwhelmed by small tasks. Nothing brings me the joy I used to find in everything. As far as I can tell nothing really happened to bring this on. I just feel myself falling into the same pit I was in for years and I can't. I have a son now. I have bills to pay. There's no one there to pick up the pieces if I fall apart. But I don't know how to stop it. Before, I had so many unhealthy ways to cope a bit. But now that I have to be responsible I'm not sure what to do. I don't really have friends, I don't have the energy to maintain relationships with "normal" people who can't understand what I'm going through. I have to pretend to be happy all say at work and then I can't just cry in front of my baby. He makes me happy but I'm mentally exhausted and I don't know who to turn to for help. So I came here. But other than this I have no ideas. I'm breastfeeding so I can't be on medicine and I don't know...