I have learned..

That sleep must be respected. Its not some optional nuisance I put up with when coffee, work, or gaming fail.

That the meds don't strip me of agency in my life, they grant it. It was untreated BP that took choice and honest expression from me.

And unfortunately, my perception of reality is deeply flawed; the observations of family and professional support are much more likely to be true than my own recollections. If sometime in the future they agree but I don't like something they suggest (med chg/hosp/etc)? I'm doing it anyway.