something happened with me and T today. i feel so lost. The first half of the session was very very quiet. there were a lot of pauses, and extended silences. really we had nothing to say to each other. she asked me what i wanted to talk about today and i had nothing. more silence. she asked me again, "so there isn't anything you wanted to talk about today?" again, nothing. then she asked me, "do you think the reason you come here with nothing to talk about is because you email it all to me ahead of time?" bingo. whenever something happens, or whenever i feel lonely, or an event in my life happens, i email her. i give her detailed play by play of how im feeling and of what happened, so then, when i get into session, i know she already knows everything and she can ask me what she pleases. it is sorta my way out of re-experiencing things in session. she said i need to experience things there, so now i have to try NOT emailing her. i'm scared, i feel like she's pushing me away. but i know she's just trying to help me. she said that i have to learn to "sit with" my emotions at the time and hold them until i see her again, because someone will not always be there in the moment for me when things come up. but haven't some of you said that you call/email your T's and ask them to "hold" things, and they are fine with that??? i guess its different than actually replacing in session explaining. like, she told me i could email her and say things like, "tonight was tough, ask me about wednesday night next session." but not to go into detail. i just feel so much more comfortable when she already knows when i come in. but shes right, if she knew everything about her clients already before they came in then what would there be to talk about? which is exactly what happens, we don't have anything to talk about. this is hard. i don't know if i can do it. how do i get through this.... what if i need her comforting voice right then, do i have to "hold it" and not call her? like, normally right now i'd be emailing her all this. but i can't, i have to wait a whole week until i see her again?? UGH! help me guys...