I can really understand just about everything except having a child to raise, but pretty much everything else I can relate to. I cannot sleep at all lately, 2 hours of sleep seems to be about all I get a day. I can no longer do so many things because as with you there is no joy in anything anymore this depression has ruined everything. All of the friends I have are online, and there aren't many of those. I can only imagine what it must be like for you to not only suffer like that but also have to worry about raising a son. I don't know what I can possibly say to help you through this since I can't do anything for myself, but if you want someone to at least chat with you can send me a message. The only thing that really helps anymore for me is having anyone to chat with, maybe it can help you too. I wish you the best and I hope you are able to over some your struggles.